"NISAMEHE" - "FORGIVE ME"

Gone are the days that you'd rest your head on my chest and smell the scent of my ripe goosebumps, those days that I would lose count of the strands of hair on your head, and I'd spend the rest of my Sunday afternoons counting and recounting those strands. 

Gone are the days when, after work, you'd take off your suit, sit on my laps and whisper, with a soft giggle, deep into my ear canal, 'Interview me honey... Let me show you my credentials'.

Those days when rain was the background noise as you sank your teeth deep into my skin, and I would groan softly from the itchiness of your sweet poison from your fangs, grabbing a fistful of the sheets and sinking you deep into my chest. Those days that I would run from the storm into your mushroom, and still, they'd be much room left for our two hearts, beating with the same symphony, and love floods. 

I can't truly explain the hole you left in me. It's as big as the skies. It's big, enormous and with no ends. It's blue and sometimes dark, and cracks with thunder. I mean, you are the lost button on my poshy tuxedo. None can ever take your place. You are the mineral water I initially bought with the drinking bottle, refilling with tap water doesn't  restore the same feeling. None can ever replace you.

Darling, I'd make myself some sandwitch, but I can't. I am missing one piece, one side, of the bread. You. Say you are coming back, that I'd mop the house, wipe the panes and fix the fan. Please, 'niambie unarudi', that I'd spread the bed and place a rose on the empty vase on our dining table. 

The last time we spoke on the phone, I heard your heart crushing and your soul dying. Forgive me honey. Let me plant back and water the young rose plant that I once stupidly uprooted. 'Nisamehe'. Come back darling. Give me a chance to fix my own wrongs, because, you forgiving me prevents me from burning in hell, you coming back prevents me from dying and you remaining by my side gives me life!

"Nisamehe - Forgive Me"

Drew Poetry

A. Mwalasha

"IT'S NOT TOO LATE'

How did we end up here? How did we abandon the good and chose to abide by the wrong? Where are the days when older women portrayed motherly images and older men were father figures? Where did it all go wrong? Why are the youth so mislead? A lost generation we truly are, and I hate writing about this. I'd rather be writing children stories but I am appalled by the truth and the reality of the world we're living in. The morals we left behind because we felt that they were heavy for our new generation souls, then we picked up regrets that will forever weigh down our hearts to our graves. Why are our irises so dusty?

Long gone are the days the elderly would lead the youth not mislead or mock them. Long gone are the days humanity lived. Long gone are the days we had lively conversations with our loved ones. Now, we sit with our devices following other peoples' lives on social media, forgetting our own. When will the stars rain down on Earth and end this filthy world? Am I insane to have fear within myself, that one day I will be expected to be a father and raise my innocent kids in this nest of serpents? Is it any fair bringing them up in a way I find right and upright, just to have them and their innocence snatched by the world, a place where everyone else quenches their thirst on the venom from this serpent called 'The World'? Am I the only one worried?

They once said that 'What's intended to happen will'. Murphys law. But then, 'One thing leads to another'. The Butterfly Effect. If we made wise choices, If we loved eachother, If we lead eachother, If we helped eachother, If we lived by the light, by the right and by the truth, preserved humanity and our morality and understood that we aren't characters in this story, but the authors to it, then whatever we chose to put down, would've been a beautiful story. But then, it's not too late.

"Not Too Late"

Drew Poetry

A. Mwalasha

"SHUT UP AND DIE"

Stab your chest, kiss your cheek, "Shut up and die",
Die by the truth, you little prick! You lived by a lie!
My head drops from my neck, rolls down my chest,
Will not give for what you take, milk dry my breast,
To you, I am a lake, and taking is what you do best,
The green, you rake, to me, leave the dried up rest,
It was my bloody mistake, that, I gave you the best,
Now,  you're a snake, coiled up inside my only nest!

"Shut Up And Die"
Drew Poetry
A. Mwalasha

"IF NOT IN A BOTTLE"

Blew my nose with your facebook page. I had no choice,
Dismissed your act on stage, uh what an appalling voice,
You're dragged into this? No... You're drugged, into this,
If patience pays, your pledge. It is time to earn my wage.
We could've done better if we'd rehearsed well backstage,
If not in a bottle, then, we can't hold this genie in a cage.

"If Not In A Bottle"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

"UKUTANI - ON THE WALL"

Tone baharini,
Kilio, cha pili,
Chozi sakafuni,
Jichoni, pilipili.
Wazo kichwani,
Shairi, kiswahili,
Mwanzoni utani,
Tena, kisha hili,
Yaweke ukutani,
Kwani yastahili. 

A drop in the ocean,
The second cry,
A tear on the floor,
Pepper in the eye,
A thought in the head,
A poem, Swahili,
A joke at first,
Again, then this,
Put them on the wall,
They deserve it.

"Ukutani - On The Wall"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

 



 

"AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME"

I will take you to the Atlantic coast in, Virginia,
Will you be my 'Puella' my sweet, sweet Latina?
Ride on the sand in a cherry red, Ford Mustang,
Lick the honey on your lips, O Lord, my tongue,
I'll sip milk, from the coves, of your closed eyes,
I'll rub myself on your skin, till my shadow dies,
Sink myself into your soul, tease you to find me,
I will do all that for you as long as you love me! 

"As Long As You Love Me"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

"HE ONCE MET A LASS"

He once met a lass, so fine,
Told himself, "I'll make her mine."
She brewed him the best honey, 
And made all his days sunny,
But would sting him like a bee. 

Had a pet name, called her, "Bee",
Played her melodies on soft piano,
Wrote her Poems, bold P, I know,
Always sung her a song, "Please, Believe",
And one day, she packed and left.

His poor heart was left, a cleft,
Got it wrong, thought it was "Bee leave",
Well, she did terribly, misunderstand,
Now he writes to make the miss understand,
His words craving for what he once felt.

"He Once Met A Lass"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

(Art Credits to the Artist)

"MUMMY & DADDY"

A picture in my hands, slightly over two decades old.  A baby tightly calm, in arms, my eyes grow wet and cold.  A tear splashes, onto a fold, on the picture's surface, onto my tiny infant face.

Taken few minutes after birth, I have always been told. With my innocent eyes closed, a tight grip on my fist hold. If I could ever have back, that moment in the picture, I would try, not to cry. I would smile back at you, mother, and high-five you, father.

You rocked me on your laps, when I couldn't shut my lips. I cried all night, you never slept. You always stood by me, and never left. Behind these grown irises of mine, you will always, forever, remain, the people who make me happy. Always, My Mummy and My Daddy.

"Mummy & Daddy"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha 

"INSANE"

With nowhere else to go tonight, I prepare, for a familiar journey. Tonight, like all nights, I am going 'insane'.

So, I wasted away my day, packing up, stuffing my mind up with irrelevant relevance, all day kissing vipers and massaging crocodiles, that, I'll hop later, into my misery cabin, and slide down my cock-pit, get drunk on the smell of my clean duvet, and finally fly myself away into insomnia land.

I am going insane and I do not like this ride, yet, I haven't been crazy, nuts or bananas, just yet. Every time that I have to abandon my ship, they say something quite strange to me, "Good Morning..." 

Strangely, I must be the only one riding, a crazy dinosaur-ghost at night, all alone, over here. Other wise, what is good about my insanity, that you have to ask about, each and every morning?

  "Insane"                                                 Drew Poetry                          ~Andy Mwalasha

"TAXI - DRIVER"

She had just landed from America,
Stepped into, my 80's Volkswagen,
Made that vintage car, a merry car,
She was like a dream folks work on,
But then, I was just, a taxi - driver,
Just a bloke, instructed to drive her.

From my driver seat,  I was drunk,
Drunk with what couldn't be mine,
Drunk driving was illegal, top rank, 
She was pure gold, out of the mine, 
But then, I was just, a taxi - driver,
She could never ever, ever be mine.

"Taxi - Driver"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha.




 

"THE WORTH OF MY BREATH"

Palm leaves swaying, to God's breath,
21 pilots on my ears, I'm on auto pilot,
Still, 21 pilots and my being's crushing,
The Weeknd is too, so who's Monday?
My remains in the sea, waves rushing,
Time is eating us, like stallions on hay,
It feels good, walking down this road,
I once dragged, a blood - stained rod,
A shovel on my dusty wide shoulders,
With my shadow, nothing could hold us,
Buried lifeless and for a millionth time, 
Born life - full over again stuck in time, 
Glow in the dark and shine, in the light,
Told myself, if I lose, then, I can fight,
I fought before, I'll fight now till death,
That's what each of my breath's worth.

"The Worth Of My Breath"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha



 
 

 

"STRONGER"

I live my life like a lizard.
Well, I live my life hard!
You want to grab my tail,
So to slow down my trail,
Well, I'll leave that; wiggly,
annoying piece of myself,
on your filthy fingertips.

Because...
I know how to let go,
I know, I can grow,
I will once sigh and go,
I am stronger now,
Way stronger,  
Than ever before.

"Stronger"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

"BLUE CAR"

When he was a little boy, his favourite toy was a blue toy racing car, which he'd spend most of his time pushing around the floor while his mother mopped the floor. He'd refuse to go out to play with other kids.

Now he's grown into a man and signed up with a rallying company. Today would be the greatest race of his lifetime. Her mother is there to watch her only son, her only boy, her only child and her only man make her proud.

As he squeezes into the driver seat of the racing metallic monster, she says a prayer in a thrill. But there's something the universe is keeping a secret from her, that if she knew about, she'd jump over the barriers from the audience without caring how much wear and tear the fierce asphalt would do to her precious wrinkles and pull him out.

Today, all she ever cared about in this world would vanish. Today, her little man would become a memory. He'd perish in a crash, in a flash.

She looks at his blue car, raving like a thirsty monster racing for an oasis as the flag drops. She feels pride build up, as tires screech away, leaving the crowd well fed with smoke and the smell of burning rubber, she jumps with the pride of a million champions, yelling, "Yeah, that's my son!"

Now freeze that scenario for a minute. I can't imagine I am about to ruin this. The old mother will sadly walk home with her world in a trash bin. She'll stand before her sitting room, decorated with his son's trophies and medals, mourn, cry and curse. A part of her will understand that he fulfilled his purpose and that it was worth it. But the other part, the motherly part, will never understand, and the void will go on unfilled for eternity. 

Back to the frozen moment, unfreeze it. She blows her whistle jumping and waving her arms, with a big poster that read "I love you Son."

Her happiness is about to get dull. The universe is waiting for the right time to serve devastation. It's waiting for her son's star to dim.

"Blue Car"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

"IN MY HARBOUR"

A ship, she was,
docked in my harbour,
lowered her anchor,
rusty, yet flawless,
she danced to the mocking waves,
rushing, breaking in her curves,
modestly dressed in sails,
she'd cruised seas, for days,
nights, months, just for me.

I sunk deep in her cabin,
behold, a chest of treasure, she held.
In pure jealous, I stabbed the captain,
and as the poor bloke bled,
I slowly stroked her mast,
she squeaked deep, in ecstasy,
trembling her salty ocean - wet iron.
She sailed for me, she came for me,
I must've been her cruising fantasy.

"In My Harbour"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

"LIVE AND LEARN"

When you want to get your feet, off the ground,
But gravity keeps on holding you more, around.
When you want to spread your wings to the sun,
And your father tells you, "Make me proud son."
But there is one thing you wish you hadn't done,
That which is heavy, making your heart a tonne,
That which you'd look back at, and wish to turn.
But then you make him proud. "We live and learn."

"Live And Learn"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

"THE TEASPOON"

I'm I the teabag in your tea?
I'm I the sugar in your tea? 
I'm I the milk in your tea?
I'm I everything in your tea?
Tell me, I am the water, atleast,
Or the cup served with the feast.

No. Do not! Shut up! Ssssh...Hush!
I need your answers no more, shush!
I learned I'm just the plastic teaspoon,
That you will use, to stir up your tea,
Then later on, throw, into the trash.
I hate that over your lies, I'd swoon. 

The Tea Spoon.
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

"WAIT FOR THE WIND"

Wait for the wind to push clear,
I'll be waiting for you, all along,
I feel you in but you're not here,
To each -other, I feel we belong,
Hold on to that loneliness, dear,
I still believe, it will not be long,
You sustained the heavy to bear,
For me, love, please stay strong.

"Wait For The Wind"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

"ROUGH"

I'm trying to swim away from the whirl in your coffee, 
but, every time you stir it up, I get back to the middle,
Go on, drown me deep and make it work for yourself,
Need more sweetness? Yeap! Reach for the top shelf,
My melting skin isn't good scent, drop in some toffee,
Once I had a heart like yours. Hard, strong and tough,
It got crushed anyway. Well, this world is that rough!

"Rough"
Drew Poetry
~Andy Mwalasha

"HARD CHOICES"

"Yes" and "No" were hard choices. "No" particularly had a really hard shell to crack. So I went for the easier one, and said "Yes" every time to your selfish desires.

"Yes"

Every time you wanted to steal away a part of me.

"Yes"

Every time you needed the smell of my burnt soul.

"Yes"

Every time you wanted the smell of my blood and my 

wounds.

"Yes"

Every time you made an offer to crack my heart.

And when my being was all burnt down, you'd roll up my bills, cut my ashes into small stripes every night on your table with my credit card, and sniffle them up. I was so blinded by the glitter on your sword that I couldn't see or feel the cuts you were impaling on my skin.

"No!"

I finally found strength to say it. I finally cracked open the "No" shell. But it was too late. You had already scattered my ashes into the waves of the sea. 

"Hard Choices"

Drew Poetry

~Andy Mwalasha

"A REPEAT"

There is a beat in my eardrums, and it is your heart beat.

Rub your feet on my arms, and we will make some heat.
 

Slide on the seat, I'll give your thumbs, some sweet treat.

Your nails so neat, sweet as plums, every night's a repeat.

"A Repeat"

Drew Poetry

~Andy Mwalasha